date: Monday, October 20, 2008 @ 9:08 AM
title: fucked up.
I HATE IT!!
I quarrelled with my entire family last night. My brother is a fucking troublemaker. I hopes he dies. I know im tpying this in a fit of anger. Dun make unneccessary comments like dont be so bad to curse him. I will curse and swear at him till my last min of my breathe.
I hate the cruel world. I hate being the middle child - as a female. Seriously, Im goin to pratice the 'stop at 2' campaign next time. And if i ever have 3 children, I'll make sure Im not going to treat my 2nd child like that.
I screamed at mum last night. I scolded her a bias asshole. I told her to pray to my brother like a god since she love him so much. I quarreld with my fucking bro during dinner time last night and my mum screamed only at me. BIAS KNN!! always my fault , who is the bloodi person who started the fight? Normally i keep my mouth shut, I dont know wad made me flared up last night.
I cried and cried. I called rex to pick me up immediately becos I dont wanan stay home. B4 I left, she still can say what did i do to make her love me more den my bro. YA i did nothing and I dont want to do anything.
Im not going to stay home and suck yr balls.
stay home n act guai..
Im not goin to stay at home n do the fucking housework. Im not cut out to be a housewife/maid.
In all yr eyes,
im always USELESS!
just becos I dont contribute to any housework..
call me useless ,call me lazy,
call me a bitch who only knows how to go out n flirt with guys
for all i cared.
I dont need this from u all.
All i need is a family who stands by me at this time.,
I hate my brother
I hate my mum biasness,
I hate my dad's temper.
I hate to see my sis still talking happily to them despite all tat happened.
I hate my life.'fuck.
last night was the first night I tot of dying.
period.